Being alone.
Hai girls and boys or women and man
Have you ever thought that you're actually afraid of being single , because you too comfortable with the idea of being in relationship? Trust me , the first answer that came into your mind is NO.
Me too . I definitely say No.
Dude , everyone know that not being in relationship won't kill you. right?
But the reality is YES , you’re too comfortable with the idea of being in relationship. Especially me, I never realised that I’m too depending on courtship to feel confident , strong & secure until one of friend tell me that
“you know what, I thought you were strong, actually you are strong enough to be alone, but you not trust yourself about it , you don’t really need relationship to feel strong, you are strong enough by your own & you just don’t realize it”
So, kata-kata tu buat aku terfikir. When is the last time I really being single. Tik tok tik tok. Semua orang tau setiap manusia sudah ditetapkan jodoh masing2. Tapi kau tau kah berapa lama lagi kau boleh betul2 nikmati zaman bujang kau? Mungkin sebulan, setahun, seminggu? Siapa tahu.
Di sana aku terfikir, why don’t I enjoy my life with my friends and family being crazy and fun because one day I will regret things that I don’t take.
I’m to commited in relationship that I don’t know how it will end. I wasting my energy and time to try being perfect partner and to have a happy ending relationship that I’ve dream. Sampai satu masa, aku terlalu berhati-hati , try so hard to become someone that they want until I’ve lost myself just to protect the relationship.
Maybe it’s too late to realise. But Now I know this is not the time for me to put that kind of effort in my life. I need to enjoy my life, loving myself more & find my myself until I really know what I want not what the guy want in me.
Like I said , “cari pengganti tu senang, tapi pertahankan relationship tu yang susah. Terutama bila orang terpikat dengan kau cuma dari segi rupa & luaran. Bila ada masa kau hodoh, dia tawar hati. Bila ada masa kau hadapi masalah, dia lari. “
So, it’s okay to become choosy & single rather than get married & you end up divorce.
Just cherish the moment. Maybe this is the only time that you have to be on your own. To appreciate people who really love & care for you. You just don’t have to change yourself just to make someone love you. Someone who are really meant to you will come and think that your flaws make you perfect. 😊
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